mai tomay is a zine I designed based on my experiences with my mother. My mother had recently done some things that hurt my siblings and I and that could have tragic consequences for all of us in the future. For me, in particular, it was an unredeemable, final mistake on her part after years of having dealt with her behavior. I had also recently uncovered a box of old childhood drawings/crafts and found a letter that one of my older sisters, as a child, had written to my mother after her first divorce. In the letter, my sister writes about love, how it hurts, but how a mother's love is fine. She thanks my mother for bringing my siblings and I into the world and wishes for better days. I was filled with grief and rage after reading this letter because it showed to me the trust that my siblings had placed in our mother and her blatant disregard for that child-like naivety. I created this work as an outlet for these emotions.
